[i may be damn near the end]
everyday i feel a little older.
and my dealings with people just seem to make me
colder.
how can she act this way after everything i told her?!
and am i supposed to just press on
like a good little soldier?
i try again to interact with other people
but the eyes of a girl hold nothing good
just evil.
i'd rather just have an intimate affair
with another needle.
atleast then i wouldnt feel just quite as feeble.
so quik to judge my
re-actions
to the way they act
and the things you've done
atleast when im fucked up again
i can laugh and be smilin'
and...just
be more...more...more
fun!...

[i want it]
it was six in the morning when i lay down my head.
now its late in the day & im just out of bed.
trying hard to recount all the things that we said.
and what it was that we did...

[ammendum to a shitty day]
is it wrong to want again tonite
asleep with you like 'that one nite'
i wont take so many drugs, i swear
okay...i might...
but i get all nerves in your sight
some times
i just want to do everything right
sometimes
just so long as i can feel your light.
and know that it is I
that makes it so bright.

{well, fuck me...}
im trying to darlin'
you know that i want to.
be that well-named gluton
up in the sky.
promised id carry you
but you never even asked me to.
and yeah
i think about that.
i think about alot of things
some times too much
sometimes to many
but i like thinking about you.

[babby dont go]
baby dont go away
not like this; not right now.
dont run away from me like
you do all the time
to them.
they who you mock and derail to me
all of the time
why wont you be with me
i will shout out my life at you
thru a cheap microphone
i will unequivecally proove
once and for all
i am the you for you